August 10, 2010 – Reclaiming LIFE

I can’t remember if I shared this story with you yet! If I have, pretend I haven’t and politely nod your head while I babble on. At the end of it all, you can inform me that you have already heard this before and I will blame my bad memory and worry what I’m going to be like when I get really old.

Since moving to Leduc from my home town Vermilion (which I lived in for most of my life prior to the move), I’ve been told a few times that I have found great friends that are just as weird and crazy as I am. I am an odd duck…this I know. I had (still have) great friends in Vermilion. They are amazing and I love them, so I had my doubts when I moved to Leduc that I would be able to make great supportive friends in a new town because I’m not that outgoing. Well, I’ve forced myself to be outgoing since I’ve moved. It just doesn’t come naturally to me.

When I first moved to Leduc, my husband and I stopped into a Piano bar. At the piano bar, there was a table of crazy, fun chicks sitting together with balloons at their table laughing, singing, dancing around. It made me smile, but mostly it made me envious. However, the reason I remember that moment at the piano bar so well is because I had the WEIRDEST vision of one day sitting there myself with a bunch of fun-loving friends. Still even though I saw that in my future, I felt a challenge of how that was going to be a reality since I have never been one to put myself out there much, especially when it comes to meeting new people.

It was around that time when we first moved here that I started realizing that it was up to me to bring into my life all those things that I wanted…non of which were material possessions. In the past, there was a lot of drama that surrounded my life. It hit me like a ton of bricks that I was the reason for a lot of it. The changes and realities that I was craving in my life were right in front of me.

I also had a hard time putting out there exactly the person I am. Which is a reason I started this blog months and months ago. I know now that I missed out on a lot of great friendships back in my home town because I didn’t put myself out there.

It’s easy to be envious of the things I want to bring into my life, but what good does that do? If I want it bad enough, I should go get it.

To me, that’s why “positive OUT” comes before “positive IN“. You have to put it out there. Do you wish you were more outgoing? Than be more outgoing! It may not come easy to you, but the only way you can change patterns is to make changes. I guess part of the reason that it’s hard to be outgoing is there is a fear that people may not like who I am. But do I like every person I come in contact with? No! So why should everyone like me? If you are truly yourself, you will bring into your life like-minded people. That’s the best part about it!

I just returned home from holidays with a mission to get back into my exercise routine. It’s a big part of who I am today, because of what it brings into my life…clarity, a sense of control, and a feeling of power and pride. It just enables me to see things in a more positive light. It enables me to put Positive Out.

And guess what happens when you put the positive out my friends…the positive comes in 10 fold. That’s great news!

Oh and by the way, I had that night out with friends at that same Piano Bar a year later. When I walked in, the table that was reserved (complete with balloons) was the very same table I saw before. We celebrated the birthday of a friend who has become one of my very best friends in Leduc. Our crazy table of friends laughed, danced, and sang. It was a blast. I am grateful.

Below: pictures from that night at the Piano Bar two years ago.