The Disconnect

One of the main hurdles I find in the area of weightloss is the disconnect…between our mind and what we are eating.

Being aware that this is an issue, doesn’t make it any easier to control.  The key is to be conscious of what we eat, when we eat, and why we are eating at all times.   

Have you ever grabbed a big bag of chips and started eating only to realize that you are quickly reaching into the bottom of the bag?  What if you were to get a small bowl from the cupboard and fill it with a snack and only eat what is in that bowl, enjoying each bite?  Would you enjoy it any less?  I find with conscious eating, I enjoy food more because I’m not just mindlessly eating.

I would say my biggest struggle with keeping the weight off is this disconnect.  It’s tough because I’ve used food to fill a void for most of my life.   As I typed that last sentence, I realized how much shame is attached with it.   I think it’s because of this shame and the way we hide it, that people that have never had an issue with their weight have a hard time figuring out why someone can become overweight.   I was overweight not because I was lazy, and not because I had no self-control.  Quite the opposite.  It takes a lot of self-control to hide the pain I felt on the inside.  I happened to wear it on the outside in the form of unwanted pounds. 

So how do you avoid this disconnect with food?  You change the way you view food, and start eating consciously.  You become aware of what, when, and why you are eating. 

You allow yourself to feel.  You find a different outlet for it.  I guess that’s why Photography is so important to me.   Photography is my outlet for all the stuff I hold inside.   It’s a way to let it all out.   I always wondered why I connected with certain photographer’s photos.  And I finally realized that I connect with how they felt when they took the photo, or with the feeling that lies within a photo. 

Here’s a photo taken in 2004 that, for me, has a lot of emotion connected to it.

MS Walk0010
I took this photo at a MS walk that we walked along side my sister (Jan is holding the red heart balloon, my sister Sharon and my Dad are beside her).  She walked an entire 10 K.  We all walked together as a family, and I was so amazed and so proud that Janice walked 10 K.

What is your outlet?  Sometimes we forget as Mom’s to remember who we are beyond the wife, mother,  employee, entrepreneur…whatever the case may be.  We lose ourselves in the midst of life.   Do not leave yourself last.  You are the best version of yourself when you are happy and whole.  If you’ve lost who you are, give yourself permission to find yourself again.

I do hope something within this blog helps someone move forward.  I have to tell you, I may not seem like a private person, but I really am.  Several times I’ve wanted to take down this blog, only because if I think about how much private stuff I’ve shared here it gives me hives.  The reason why I share, and why I will continue to share beyond my comfort zone, is because I will never, ever, ever forget the hopeless feeling that comes along with being stuck at a place in life that you do not know how to move forward out of.  So, I do hope these words touches someones heart and helps them move ahead.  I have appreciated everyone that has taken the time to comment or that has sent me an e-mail.  It takes the hives away 🙂

Take care my friends,


Life is so good!

I was reminded today that life is so good.  It was a little moment that passed today that normally I would have taken for granted.  We went to a movie tonight as a family (we saw “Up”..great family movie).  My sons decided to sit in the row ahead of us because there was only 4 seats to a row…we happen to be a family of 5.  My hubby and I sat with Tessa at our side. 

Throughout the movie, my kids all showed there unique and quirky personalities.  Lukey excused himself to go to the washroom, only to return and break out laughing mid-walk down the isle as he watched the movie.  He giggled all the way to his chair.  You have to hear Lukey’s giggle to appreciate it. It’s the best laugh and it’s totally infectious. 

Tyler would lean down and whisper things to Lucas through out the movie which would bring on another bout of the giggles from both boys.  I tapped Ty on the shoulder to share his Skittles and he gave me the biggest handful and smiled his wicked little smile at me.  He’s so loving.

Tessa spent a lot of time talking out loud as the movie played.  She was very concerned for the characters involved and her expressions are so animated.  I love her so much.

So…as I sat there watching my kids, and tapping my hubby every time one of our kids did something I got a kick out of, I was reminded how good life is.  It was a good night…no, it was a great night.  We were all together and we loved being together.  That’s what life is all about.  

Life is good.

There is so much beauty in life, sometimes we forget to appreciate the little things.  We live in a country where we are free to love, praise, and live without condemnation.  That in itself is cause for joy.  Why are we always finding something to complain about?! 

Soak up the joy all around you.  Be thankful for your friends and family…they are food for your soul. 

Tomorrow is going to be another beautiful day.  I plan to start it out with a smile and a hug from my kids. 

I’ll leave you with one of my favourite quotes by George Bernard Shaw.


“This is the true joy in life, the being used for a purpose recognized by yourself as a mighty one; the being thoroughly worn out before you are thrown on the scrap heap; the being a force of Nature instead of a feverish selfish little clod of ailments and grievances complaining that the world will not devote itself to making you happy.”
George Bernard Shaw
Epistle Dedicatory to Arthur Bingham Walkley
“Man and Superman: a Comedy and a Philosophy”

Good night my friends!