I am an all or nothing person. Either I want to do it perfectly, or not at all. I am learning to let go of the self-imposed pressure to be the sort of woman I believe I “should” be. The ideal I set for myself comes from many factors, many of which are moulded from my childhood, relationships, life experiences, and society.
I had a crazy idea the other day, what if I just stopped the quest for what I “should” be…and just be. That isn’t to say I don’t want to grow as a person, quite the opposite, but rather to listen to my intuition and authentic voice and not outside influences. We all have an authentic voice we can choose to either honour or ignore.
As I enter 2016 I choose to work on listening and acting on my authentic voice within.
To grow as a person and to support others as they grow too.
To find me again. To allow others to be exactly who they are.
To be kind and accept kindness.
To let go and trust myself.
To be imperfectly perfect.
To embrace failure within my life, and to not only learn from it but to grow within it.
To stop running from painful experiences.
To allow myself to unravel and rebuild who I know I am as a person.
I had a revelation the other day while I was on the treadmill. I fear a lot. More specifically, I fear failure and the unknown. This fear holds me back from pursuing my goals. It’s a ball of dark energy that grows within like a living entity who’s voice is rooted in self-doubt. At times, it’s a small presence that creeps in during times of growth and change, and other times it takes up all the available space within a dream.
Now, I had another revelation. It’s up to me whether I feed the fear or not. Whatever I feed, that is what will grow. Feed doubt…it will grow. Feed fear…it will grow and take over. Feed hope…and it will grow and flourish within the soul. Feed positivity and it will multiply and overtake the doubt. So what am I going to feed today? It’s my choice.
Today I choose to hope.
To look for the good.
To move forward.
To uplift others.
To be positive.
The truth is, whatever I choose to feed, it not only affects my spirit but all those around me. We all give off energy to others. It lies within how we carry ourselves. The way we smile or don’t smile. They way we react during times of adversity. In the smallest of exchanges between strangers. A hello. Our energy is transferable. We hold the power within to make another’s day a little brighter. It’s a choice. And that’s a ridiculously amazing gift we can give to others.
“People will forget the things you do, and people will forget the things you say. But people will never forget how you made them feel.” Maya Angelou
I wish you much happiness and positivity today! Be good to you.