I’ve Lost Myself Again

I haven’t been in control of my eating lately, and I feel terrible about it.  I haven’t been eating consciously this past few weeks (although a trip to Vegas is never helpful in the eating department) and I need to stop and pull it back together. 

I’ve been struggling with where I’m going with my photography as a business, and who I am as a photographer (among other things) so rather than think about it, I’ve been eating my way through the emotions.  Not healthy at all!  It’s only now that I’ve realized why I’ve been struggling lately. 

So often when we struggle, we are just going through the motions.  Every day: putting one foot in front of the other.  Refusing to focus, feel, or think…and then looking for something to make us feel better just for a bit. 

I just had to get it out there so I can start over.  The best part is that every day is a new day.  It’s natural to struggle and lose  focus, but I’m back on track today. 

Another facet of this issue is that I didn’t realize that my friends count on me to motivate them.  After a long conversation with a friend this week, I realized that she looked up to me.  What?  It blew me away that someone would think I had my “stuff” together enough to look up to. 

So…. Breathe….because I’ve lost myself again.

Today is a new day full of possibilities.

I’m going to be conscious of what I eat.

I’m going to be active today.

I feel my best when I’m in control of what I eat and when I stay active.

The only person that is holding me back from my goals is ME. 

I’m going to allow myself to feel today.

2 thoughts on “I’ve Lost Myself Again

  1. And with that being said, I’m going to lace up my running shoes and hit the sidewalk for a run.

    Thank you for sharing, C. I had hit a huge wall too…a combo of things…bad eating (since Mexico), photography, thinking about going back to work.

    But you’re sooo right…the only one holding me from attaining my goals is ME.

  2. You are great Christine. I too have hit a little bump in the road, as I have a head cold, and think that I should just keep everyone in the house and perferable on the couch!
    But there is no reason that I can’t take the kids to the park this pm, and walk the long way there, and push the crummy stroller that works the arms.
    Thanks I know have a plan for the pm:)

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