I’ve Lost Myself Again

I haven’t been in control of my eating lately, and I feel terrible about it.  I haven’t been eating consciously this past few weeks (although a trip to Vegas is never helpful in the eating department) and I need to stop and pull it back together. 

I’ve been struggling with where I’m going with my photography as a business, and who I am as a photographer (among other things) so rather than think about it, I’ve been eating my way through the emotions.  Not healthy at all!  It’s only now that I’ve realized why I’ve been struggling lately. 

So often when we struggle, we are just going through the motions.  Every day: putting one foot in front of the other.  Refusing to focus, feel, or think…and then looking for something to make us feel better just for a bit. 

I just had to get it out there so I can start over.  The best part is that every day is a new day.  It’s natural to struggle and lose  focus, but I’m back on track today. 

Another facet of this issue is that I didn’t realize that my friends count on me to motivate them.  After a long conversation with a friend this week, I realized that she looked up to me.  What?  It blew me away that someone would think I had my “stuff” together enough to look up to. 

So…. Breathe….because I’ve lost myself again.

Today is a new day full of possibilities.

I’m going to be conscious of what I eat.

I’m going to be active today.

I feel my best when I’m in control of what I eat and when I stay active.

The only person that is holding me back from my goals is ME. 

I’m going to allow myself to feel today.