I had a conversation the other day with a friend about health and fitness. She said to me: “but it’s easy for you, because you love working out.”
And as customary for me, I over thought that idea. Do I really love working out? Do I love the muscle fatigue when I get to set 3? Do I love the urging my body gives me to just get through a run even though I’d rather be chillin’ on the couch? Do I love visiting the grocery store with sleep nagging at my spirit after an evening shift…knowing if I don’t prepare for my week, I will make horrible nutritional choices?
What it comes down to for me can be surmised into one word…
There was a time when I didn’t love myself and my obese frame was a reflection of my choices. I was stellar at loving everyone around me, but horrible at showing care for myself.
That’s exactly what this journey has been about for me. Unconditional Love, embracing the flaws and all. The weight loss was a byproduct of finally taking care of myself: Mind, Body, Spirit.
I run because my legs are able and it clears my mind providing clarity.
I lift weights because it mimics life. If you don’t use it you will lose it. I want to be Betty White old…full of vivacious energy and zest of spirit.
All of those fancy weightlifting terms like “Squat, Deadlift, Row, Press”; these are all every day life activities. We all literally squat several times a day, every single time we sit down. We deadlift every time we drop something and pick it up. We row when we pick up our kids. We press when we put dishes away.
I see it as an investment into my children’s future. I want them to visit me at a cottage by the lake when I’m retired, not an old folk’s home. I want to take care of myself; so no one else has to.
I now look at food as a vehicle to provide me energy, health and vitality. It’s 100% MY choice. There’s no one else to blame around me for what I put into my body.
I used to play the blame game: if only chips weren’t brought into my house. If only my friend’s didn’t ask me to go for nachos (I will slice a bitch for a plate of nachos…clearly it’s a trigger food for me).
Whatever circumstances that bring you challenges surrounding making positive food choices (whether it’s donuts in the coffee-room, or no time in the morning for breakfast because of your fast paced life), these are your obstacles to overcome. You will either succeed despite these obstacles, or you can continue to blame. It’s all a choice. You have the power of that, and that’s ridiculously freeing when you exercise your right to choose.
I am honestly so thankful for these obstacles when I was not only losing the weight, but also into year 12 of maintaining. I had/have to create fail-proof strategies to deal with my own issues surrounding food. I choose to turn that into power.
Two years ago, I was shopping in this quaint little store and I stumbled across a necklace that had the following inscribed on it in tiny lettering.
“You always have a choice”.
I wear it often, it’s a constant reminder that I am the author of my life.
Every day I choose to bring it back to LOVE.
Love for myself.
For my children, family, friends, clients, coworkers.
For strangers I pass on the street. Positive energy is infectious.
I hope you choose LOVE toady in all you do, and if I happen to see you today…I will do my very best to send the most positive vibes your way.
From my heart to yours,